IN LOVE, you find the oddest combinations; materialistic people find themselves in love with idealists; clingers fall in love with players; homebodies capture and try to smother butterflies. Wala naman nagsabi na magtatagal kami eh, kahit ako, kahit siya nagulat na kami parin. He shows me something that I’ve never had before. Understanding, unconditional support. And he doesn’t grumble about it. He does it because he wants to, because he thinks I deserve it.
Love is not about “It’s your fault” but “I’m sorry”. Not “Where are you?” but “I’m right here”. Not “How could you?” but “I understand”. Not “I wish you were” but “I’m thankful you are”.
Happy One year and Six Months
I love you Shin Perez Daikeru
I’m holding on tighter.. Don’t think that I’m drifting away from you whenever you feel that I’m not in the mood to talk to you.. I just miss you so much and all I want is to hear your voice.. My love for you doesn’t depend on my mood, it is always here, it never leaves or skip a beat for you.. You know what, I can never drift away from you, even if I do, I will always come back to you because I already made an invisible string that will connect me to you every time I swim myself into thinking and get drown in it. You just have to pull it up and save me from dying inside.. I’ll do the same to you.. Let’s save each other, let’s not drown together. Forever started, we shouldn’t waste every single day of it..
just please quit pushing me away…
I miss the old me
When people say they miss me
I think how much I miss me too,
I miss my old life
“hindi kumplikado, wala kang taong nasasaktan, yung ako na walang masyadong alam sa mga bagay bagay”
I miss the old Rizza
The one who doesn’t get bad dreams at night. The one who doesn’t wake up to the saddest of mornings
The one whose happiness is considered by everyone as infectious
I miss all the hobbies I used to have
kahit wala akong masyadong alam sa paligid alam kong magiging masaya parin ako
may dis advantage din pala pag nabubuksan yung isip mo sa madaming bagay
I miss the old me
The old me who I worked on so hard for years to be consistently happy.
I used to love challenges and now I just fall apart over the smallest thing. I need to find a way to turn this around but I just don’t know how.
Yung Rizza na kahit hindi mag salita ng ilang oras ayos lang dahil naiintindihan siya ng taong kasama niya.
THE ME WHO GETS HAPPY OVER LITTLE THINGS.
THE OLD ME WHEN I WAS WITH YOU
THE OLD ME WHO WOULDN’T DWELL OVER WORDS.
Note: If things don’t go according to plan, aalis na lang ako and study abroad maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself ..
- ito na ang huling pag blog ko ng sad sa tumblr ko. Pag balik ko yung dating (old) Rizza Cruz Samson na ang magsusulat ulit dito.
What’s wrong with me?!?
“I’m speechless. I’m so disappointed in myself
I’ve never felt like more of a failure in my entire life.
I didn’t even want to look at my _________ because I knew that I let ________ down, and I let myself down too. :/
I was stupid enough..
After having such a cheery day (hindi ko na ma explain, masyado complicated).. it was awful…
I know. Boohoo me. I realize I’m still pretty fortunate. Millions of people all over the world have it worse than me. I realize that. I just needed to write this all out to get some perspective.
Thanks (TUMBLR) for letting me get this out of my system. I feel like it’s a bad dream when I first wake up only to realize it’s reality!
by the way HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME ..
NOT a good way to start the year!.. I know..
The best gift I could’ve received this New Year I have already received, because the best thing in the world is your sweet company, the peace and love your presence brings to my heart.
I want to forever be at your side, to love you and to argue with you, to laugh with you and to cry with you, to share with you and to dream with you.
We share a connection that goes deeper than anyone has ever known. The road that we have walked together so far has not been an easy one, but you have proven to me, many times over, the kind of man that you are by walking it with me, at my side. Mahirap pero salamat kasi na save natin yung relationship na ito.
From this night forward I will love you with all that I am. Our amazing love, blended with bitterness of life strengthens us. Our dis-agreements makes us realize that we are not perfect.
I will shout “I love you” without hesitation. I will whisper “I need you” with excitement. And I want you to know that there is not a single moment that I’ve never felt in love with you.
As the old year ends and the new year begins, keep my heart safe as I will keep your heart safe within my own soul.
Happy New Year My Jhelo, My Charles Perez Daikeru, my Karl Anjelo Vengco, my Mahal, my Mr. Yogurt, my Boy Hipon, my Mr. Sungit, my Chef, my Everything.
I STUDY HARD BUT I LOVE HARDER (4)
Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it’s a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. - Jennifer James
“Give a girl the correct footwear and she can conquer the world.” – Bette Midler
In the world of fiction, all women absolutely love shoes..If diamonds are girl’s best friend then shoes are woman’s best friend..
I travel a lot and collect shoes at the same time.. 80% ng mga ito hindi ko pa nasusuot.. and wala pa kong balak suotin.
from boots, rubber shoes, stilletos, pairs of sneakers, flip-flops, or anything else without heels. I don’t buy shoes dahil gusto ko lang..
I believe na every shoes meant na mapunta sa owner niya. .
literal na iiyak yata ako pag nawala sila sakin..They helped me overcome depression!
Happy 1 year and 3 months Charles Perez Daikeru
(December 13, 2011)
I have never felt such an unexplainable love that we share. Sa dami ng pictures natin together mas lalo ko naalala na ang dami na pala nating napagdaanan. Knowing you has made me realize how precious and fragile love can be. I know that we’ve been through a lot, the best and the worst, but the best times will definitely makes up for all the worst times that we had. Thank you because despite of everything we managed to keep this amazing gift that we have for each other and we are helping each other not to give up. You touched my life so deeply in your own way that you’ve helped me laugh and become my own self. Your love gives me the feeling, that the best is still ahead.
The risk that we will be taking will be all worth it because I WILL BE WITH YOU and YOU WILL BE WITH ME! (ilang taon na lang)
I look forward to all the years we will have together. I look forward to the smiles and the tears that we will make together. You are my love, my life. This might feel like a cliché, but it is true. You are the very thought that occupies my mind every hour, every minute, every second of the day.
Last night I had a rather poignant realization: I don’t want to lose you. Kahit nag aaway na tayo and muntik na tayo maghiwalay kahapon . So let’s make this work, I know we can keep the magic alive between the two of us. We’re just at the beginning of a fantastic journey, and I’m ready to take it with you. I hope you’re ready, too.
I thank God that you popped up in my life right when I needed you, lalo na ngayon.
Mahal na mahal kita!
Love .,Samson Rizza Cruz
We fight, we cry, we stop talking but we still LOVE each other.
I’ve been walking around this morning with a book in my hand (RIZAL BOOK) , but as usual, I have been occupied with nothing but you Charles Perez Daikeru..
When I first met you, I had no idea how you would change my life. I had no idea I would fall in love with you, that you would be the one person to truly understand me..
Before you I have never experienced love and I want to thank you for letting me have one of my own. “I’m proud na nakaabot ako sa ganitong stage ng relationship”
I want you to know that since the first day my love for you have only grown and I know it will grow manifold when we will be together. I want to let you know that you have made me complete..
Thanks Jhelo for being mine.
I want to be there for you any way I can
Every moment we spend together, every time you hold me, every time our lips meet, everything we go through we go through together.
I never felt this way about anyone in my life. “SAYO LANG”
You’re the only boyfriend who gives my heart some excitement and thrills.
When I’m with you I feel like I’m out of control!
How you can tolerate someone like me on a daily basis is something I don’t think I will ever understand!
Mahal na mahal Kita …
Love Samson Rizza Cruz
Note: First Letter niya sakin ..
I LOVE YOU MORE TODAY THAN I DID YESTERDAY, and I’LL LOVE YOU MORE TOMORROW THAN I DO TODAY.
Mr. Charles Perez Daikeru - The day we met was fate..
We were lucky to find each other and we both strive daily to keep our love alive. “hindi madali pero kinakaya natin”
It’s so fulfilling to see how both of us have supported each other at times when we needed each other the most. The real test of any relationship comes when you see someone you loved the most by your side. It’s so gratifying how both of us value the commitment towards our relationship. “always remember nandito lang ako palagi para sayo”
I would never do anything to hurt you. “kahit na nahihirapan ka sakin minsan, I will love you faithfully.. I feel so happy just being with you this way.
We have been through a lot these past months..mas na realize ko sa relation na it requires a lot of sacrifices, compromises, care and time.
You taught me so many things that brought “CONFIDENCE” in me.
I am glad we respect each other’s individuality and at the same time we go out of way to make each other feel special in every possible way.
Thanks for every effort you make to bring a smile on my face. “lalo na pag nag aaway tayo ikaw ang bumabali ng tension”
Thanks for always being committed to our love when things were tough.
I want to hold you
I want to touch you
I want to love you
I want to feel you
I want to hear you
I want to see you .. from every angle!
ganito ka nakikita ng mga mata ko, I love you!
nerve-racking ’conversation’ with him at Trinoma - Starbucks (last month)
Charles: Alam mo ba kung gano kahirap mag handle ng isang Rizza Samson? Kung alam lang nila.. Lahat na ng ugali mo hawak ko na eh. Ito na lang hindi ko mahawakan. Bigla ka na lang hindi nagsasalita. Pangalawang beses ko na itong sinasabi sayo. Ano ganyan ka na lang lagi? Tatahimik na lang? hindi ka na naman magsasalita? Rizza magsalita ka hindi pwedeng palaging ganito. Ang hirap hirap mong basahin. Sobra!
Rizza: ng mga oras na ito wala akong nasabi sa mahal ko :( tinitigan ko lang siya habang sinasabi niya sakin lahat.. Magkaiba kami ni Jhelo, sa relasyon namin lagi siyang nagsasalita ako palaging nakatahimik.
Iniisip ng iba swerte si jhelo sakin pero hindi nila alam ang swerte ko sa kanya DAHIL PILIT NIYANG INIINTINDI YUNG KATAHIMIKAN KO.. hindi siya sumuko kahit sinasabi kong mas mabuting bitawan niya na lang ako..
Charles: rizza kahit konti hindi pumasok sa isip ko na makipaghiwalay sayo, sayo na lang at sa pamilya ko umiikot ang buhay ko tapos ganyan ka pa, pag ganito tayo, sira ako rizza nasisira ako
Alam mo mas mabuti pang sampalin mo ko, doon malalaman ko na galit ka na pala, na dapat na kitang lambingin na hindi na pala okay yung ginagawa ko,
Rizza isang taon na tayo pero ganyan ka parin, tahimik. yung ibang mag boyfriend dyan okay na sila
Rizza: wala parin ako nasabi kahit galit na galit na siya.. hindi ko mabukas yung mga labi ko kahit alam kong dapat na kong magsalita :( ganito ako.. ganito ako sa relasyon namin..
hanggang tumigil na siya sa pagsalita doon ko naramdaman na napagod na siya sa pag papaliwanag ng mga bagay na dapat ako intindihin
Rizza: natili akong tahimik, umiiyak ako sa loob ko.
Rizza: lumapit ako sa kanya, while holding his hand habang nakatingin sa mga mata niya
Hindi niya ko tinitignan, ramdam ko yung galit niya.
hindi ko namalayan tumutulo na yung mga luha sa mga mata ko
Charles: wag ka umiyak
Rizza: Im so sorry. Im sorry :’(
Charles: ngumiti siya sakin
Rizza: kaya mo pa ba kong mahalin?
Charles: Oo mahal
Rizza: I kiss him.
Note: 1 year and 2 months na kami, at ganito narin niya katagal akong iniintindi, na kahit sinong lalaki hindi nagawang gawin sakin..
Just wanted to write you a little note. Matatapos na yung araw natin kahit hindi tayo magkasama ngayon at walang chance na mag celebrate I still want to greet you Happy one year and 2 months Mr. Charles Perez Daikeru!
Thank you for having so much faith in me and in us as a couple. Thank you for making me a better person “hindi nakikita ng iba kung sino yung tunay na jhelo, na marami akong bagay na natututunan sayo”
I never expected to feel this way nor actually be with you in this way, experiencing life with you. “wala yatang nakapagsabi na magiging tayo pala? na ikaw pala!” You make me really happy and even though we are apart so much of the time sobrang lungkot but I know mas magiging strong pa tayo and hindi mo ko bibitawan and as time goes by my feelings for you grow dramatically.
I can’t imagine spending time with someone else and having these feelings for anyone else. Sayo lang talaga eh :> I am proud of you, alam mo yan! you have improved your life so much from what it was before and I am so happy kasi rinerespeto mo ko.
I love you so much, and can’t wait to be with you again.
Note: Burgoo restaurant with him. Thanks for the drawing mahal, I will keep this drawing safe!
sysbllmnbsn asked: I miss you so much pinsan. Every morning I wake up and you are always on my mind. I wish I was with you every day to make more memories with you. Shopping, going out to eat, walking to the market... I wish I could have been more involved in your life as we grew up. As I grew up, Lola would always talk about you and Kuya Gerald, and I always wondered why.. but now I know why. You are such an amazing person and of course my bestfriend. I love you and I still wish that I was with you right now. <3
I’m so thankful to have a cousin like you :) There is no other who could fill your shoes.. You are my lil sister.. You’re someone I can count on when I need a helping hand.. You’re the best cousin and I really love you.. For many countless reasons, you are more to me than my cousin.. You are also my best friend. Between us are many miles but always remember “labis kitang mahal” I really do appreciate you! I miss you Savannah, I miss Tacoma!
Advance Happy 1 year and 2 months
There are no words to describe how thankful I am that God brought us together.
We don’t dance at the same tune of life but I love to dance with you
We may have our disagreements and tiffs, but “LOVE” has not yet failed us.
We always make it through the difficult times. “sabi mo nga sakin sinusubok lang tayo ng panahon kaya dapat mas maging strong tayo”
We were different but we stand together.
You have always been there without judgment. Alam mong matigas ang ulo ko, I don’t talk that much, lagi tayo nag aaway pero nandyan ka parin hindi ka umaalis.
I am even more in love with you today than I was a year ago.
You are such a strong, and loving person.
I just want you to know that there is no one like you and every day I pray for you.
I pray that God gives you strength, wisdom, and patience. (para alam mo na hmm para hindi ka mapagod sa pag intindi sakin)
Thanks for choosing me. for continuing to choose me every day. Lagi ko sinasabi no matter happen wag mo ko bibitawan.
You have made my days so much brighter. Thanks for including me in every decision, big or little.
I could not have asked for a better teammate in life. You are my partner in the race. Thank you for your dedication to God and to our relationship.
Thank you for the love, patience, and encouragement you provide. Thank you for challenging me to be better. Isang taon na yung lumipas at nag dami ng nagbago sakin simula ng nakilala kita, ang dami ko natutunan sayo at sa relasyon na ito.
We still have much to learn. It has been an amazing year. I’m so proud to call you my boyfriend. Thank you so much for loving me. For seeing something in me.
Thank you for being you. There is just something about you, which I cannot resist. It means so much to me to be your girlfriend.
I love you so very much and am committed to making our relationship last
- Namimis na kita ulit
from Ms. Samson Rizza Cruz